You blame me, I blame society. We always forget to thank the little people.
Yo, at least you have friends. People who love you...you loved me....and I'm sure someone gives a shit, but I've been wrong before.
Fuck you Lucy
Yesterday I went into my bar where I used to be a regular, but haven't been lately because I lost the bar in a divorce to a man who didn't hold up his end of the bargain. I bailed on him, and he still really wants what we had back. He is in this bar EVERYDAY. The bartender lead me over to the juke box, and showed me the list of most played songs, and number 5 was "Fuck you Lucy" by Atmosphere.
Today I had to look up the lyrics which are insanely relevant to me and to him. I included them at the bottom of this post, and highlighted the REALLY relevant lyrics in bold.
Truth be told I haven't been pursued like this since High School, and everyday I get emails and texts that are tear jerking and ooze sappy romance. IF I said I didn't enjoy it, I'd be a liar.
While I call him, I shouldn't.
Certain people feel as though up until recently I was "leading him on" but not deliberately. Our relationship wasn't working, and when I feel a certain way, I bounce. I do this very quickly and quietly. It's part of my Ninja mantra. I'd like to take him back, because I feel as though he'd try harder and I still care about him, I can't. I'd like too, but I CAN'T. He was kind of mean and always fighting me to lead. When I gave him the chance to lead he didn't take us anywhere, so I took the lead back and he still fought for it back.
BASICALLY this is a guy who doesn't know what he wants other than wanting to wake up next to me everyday. The emails are worth posting, but I just can't violate him on that level as well.
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