My last words to my mother...

Why have you not been punished by the universe for how you have treated me? Why have you not been shown the error of your ways for favoring Elise and neglecting me? For making up lies about me, for never getting to know me, and for purposely bullying, humiliating, and gaining satisfaction while hurting me?

You laughed at me as I cried and begged to go home.

My fish die in my room because you are such a monster.

I could not work for almost 2 months while recovering from being violently attacked by my herion addict sister.

Now I have PTSD, and no family.

She has always wanted to push me out of the family. She has always been a manipulative liar, a thief and materialistic.
You think this isn't about money?
Well it doesn't matter if it is, you just do not love me. You never liked me, you never asked me about my day or life. If I tried to tell you about my work or life you acted annoyed.
When I asked you why you never wanted to get to know me you said it was because everything I did was "awful".

Marketing for oil change places, advertising a NYC hotel, branding a parking garage, advertising for karaoke bars, and Indian restaurants and beer festivals is "awful"?
Liquidating a hotel is awful?

.....you filled the garage with their shit after I spent days cleaning it. I took off my own time to clean the garage that had shit in there from before I was born!
You just use the space to move a junkie and her boyfriend in.

You never drove me to the airport or picked me up once, ever.

You just laugh at this shit. You just tell yourself I am crazy so you don't feel guilty.
You have never loved me or supported me. When I needed you most, when I was at my most vulnerable, you choose to hurt me.
You use me as a common enemy to bring your family closer together, because you are such lowlifes that you cannot discuss politics, arts, or culture, you need human gossip. Just like when you went to the mall when we were little girls and you pointed out fat people with your HATEFUL speech or said other awful superficial observations.
You needed to be negative and say nasty rotten shit about other people.

I can't believe I ever fell for your bullshit, and trusted you to live there.
I should have known your were going to do this to me and prepared for it!
Kept all my belongings in another location for when you kicked me out at a moment's notice.
You wanted me to be unprepared, you wanted to hurt me.
You made sure I had to pay for a lawyer, and first, last, and security.

All my savings is drained because you let a violent drug addict attack me, then lied about it. When I begged you to come home you laughed at me.

You let your daughter listen in to our conversations pretending to be afraid because you want the attention.

I can honestly say that I have never felt loved by you, or that you were ever proud of me.

I will never forgive you for this, I will never put myself in a position to be hurt by you again. I will never trust you, and after you have told so many lies to me and about me I will never believe a word you say.
You lack any conviction or morality.
I am pretty sure your total lack of empathy during all of this makes you a sociopath.
I mean you never gave me a 16th Birthday!!!!

However I am a bad person, I never deserved to be loved by you, or treated like a human.
The universe does not punish you because I am being punished for being "HATEFUL" and "awful", right?

You have been calling me "sick" for years when you have not had a conversation with me about me that lasted more than 5 minutes in 10 plus years!
I am not awful!
I am not HATEFUL!
I especially am not sick. 
I am sad.
I am sad I have no mother, I am sad I have been betrayed by you, and I am sad you get such satisfaction from my pain and suffering.
You like bringing me down, you never wanted me to succeed.

You let your husband beat me up, you invited elise to leave her shoes and shit all over the living room, but my boxes were outside the bedroom door while I cleaned it warranted a verbal attack. That day I cried because you yelled at me for something so petty.

I can't believe I didn't protect myself from you??!!!!
I can't believe you would purposely ruin my life, my clean record??!!!
Your daughter shoplifts??!!!!
She used my drivers license and pretended to be me when she was arrested for a fucking FELONY!??!!?
You always encouraged her to hurt me!!!!!
You used to give her reasons to pick on me when I was a kid, pitting her against me.
You would even laugh at me with her!

I can't believe I ever trusted you.... I should have just stayed the fuck away from you.
You have no soul.

You didn't read this email, because you were annoyed it was ever sent. You were annoyed that I needed to communicate my pain to you.

You can just pretend you havn't almost ruined my whole life!

You purposely tried to ruin your oldest daughter's life when you saved Elise's over and over and over!!

I didn't need to be saved by you, I just didn't need to be hurt by you.

Since you don't want to read this, and didn't read this......I am glad I didn't waste any of your precious time.

Gran listened to you every night, and you cannot even be bothered to read an email?
You were never a mother to me, please erase me from your life.

Since you disowned me, don't ever lay claim to any of my success, or try to contact me after it.
Do not try to contact any of my children, and your AAA membership was a nice fucking parting gift.

Thanks for the pain, and never loving me. You loved Elise with all your heart and soul and she is a shoplifting, junkie, TV watching, HEP C, manipulative loser.

I don't even know why I am so mad you never loved me??!! It is like being upset that a rattle snake never bit me!??!