At 34, I already have far too many things I wished, worked, and PINED for that I have looked back on and asked myself:

"Really?!" 

These have come in the form of many goals, humans, or material possessions.

• A stupid expensive backpack purse
• MULTIPLE MEN
• YETI Cooler
• Friends....

However the one I feel the worst about, that has the most consistent impact on my daily life was my goal of being "feared"....Really I was just insecure, defenseless, tiny, and without any kind of emotional, financial, or physical safety net.

In my life at this moment I have a female friend I liked very much who thinks I am actively stalking her via an app in her phone.....her stupid IPHONE....a platform and system I know literally nothing about. 

What made me a game changer was a weird perfect storm of parental neglect, intelligence, early immersion in other cultures, my red hair stigmatization, and coming from a lower middle class family that gained access to money....not that I ever saw SHIT. 

Whatever.....I am stalking NO ONE, I don't even watch TV! 

The desire to cover my face explained by the use of a non-Islamic head scarf.

In the Qur'an there is nothing that literally says for women to cover their heads and faces. Actually the term hijab in Arabic literally means “a screen or curtain”. It was used in the Qu'ran to refer to a partition. The Qu'ran tells the male believers (Muslims) to talk to the wives of Muhammad behind a curtain.

LITERALLY HIS WIVES! 

"This curtain was the responsibility of the men and not the wives of Muhammad. This leads some to claim that the mandate of the Quran to wear hijab applies to the wives of Muhammad, not women generally.^[11][12] "

The only verses in the Qur'an that specifically reference women’s clothing, are those promoting modesty, instructing women to guard their private parts and throw a scarf over their bosoms in the presence of men.^[41]

A practice I fully endorse! 

Αlthough hijab is often seen by critics as a tool utilized by men to control and silence women, the practice is understood differently in different contexts.^[13]



 The contemporary understanding of the hijab dates back to Hadith when the “verse of the hijab” descended upon the community in 627 CE.^[42] Now documented in Sura 33: 53 the verse states, “And when you ask [his wives] for something, ask them from behind a partition. That is purer for your hearts and their hearts”.^[43] This verse, however, was not addressed to women in general, but exclusively to Muhammad’s wives. As Muhammad’s influence increased, he entertained more and more visitors in the mosque, which was then his home. Often, these visitors stayed the night only feet away from his wives’ apartments. It is commonly understood that this verse was intended to protect his wives from these strangers.^[44] During Muhammad’s lifetime no other women in the Ummah (Muslim community) observed the hijab. Instead, the term for donning the veil, darabat al-hijab, was used interchangeably with “becoming Muhammad’s wife”.^[45] As stated by Reza Aslan, “The veil was neither compulsory nor widely adopted until generations after Muhammad’s death, when a large body of male scriptural and legal scholars began using their religious and political authority to regain the dominance they had lost in society as a result of the Prophet’s egalitarian reforms”.^[44] Other scholars point out that the Qur'an does not require women to wear veils; rather, it was a social habit picked up with the expansion of Islam. In fact, since it was impractical for working women to wear veils, "A veiled woman silently announced that her husband was rich enough to keep her idle."^[46]

Veiling did not originate with the advent of Islam. Statuettes depicting veiled priestesses precede all three Abrahamic religions (Christianity, Judaism, and Islam), dating back as far as 2500 BCE.^[47] Elite women in ancient Mesopotamia and in the Byzantine, Greek, and Persian empires wore the veil as a sign of respectability and high status.^[48] In ancient Mesopotamia, Assyria had explicit sumptuary laws detailing which women must veil and which women must not, depending upon the woman’s class, rank, and occupation in society. Veiling was meant to “differentiate between ‘respectable’ women and those who were publicly available”.^[48] Female slaves and unchaste women were explicitly forbidden to veil and suffered harsh penalties if they did so. Veiling was thus a marker of rank and exclusive lifestyle, subtly illustrating upper-class women’s privilege over women in lower classes in the Assyrian community.

Strict seclusion and the veiling of matrons were in place in Roman and Byzantine society as well. Between 550 and 323 B.C.E, prior to Christianity, respectable women in classical Greek society were expected to seclude themselves and wear clothing that concealed them from the eyes of strange men.^[49] These customs influenced the later Byzantine empire where proper conduct for girls entailed that they be neither seen nor heard outside their home. Like in Assyrian law, respectable women were expected to veil and low-class women were forbidden from partaking in the practice. In Classical Rome, the Emperor Augustus encouraged his citizens all around the Mediterranean to enter temples "capo velato" literally "with their heads veiled", by which he intended clothing that did not differ much from traditional Saudi clothing for men and women today. Augustus himself appeared like this in propaganda pictures and temple portraits (see the Ara Pacis temple in Rome). The Romans were embedded in a larger Mediterranean/Middle Eastern milieu with roots in Mesopotamia (Iraq) and Egypt, and they transmitted this legacy to both the eastern and western parts of the Roman Empire, which today constitute approximately the Muslim Mediterranean (and parts of the Middle East) and Europe.

By the 5th and 6th centuries, societies of the Mediterranean Middle East were dominated by Christian and some Jewish populations. At the inception of Christianity, Jewish women were veiling the head and face. In Judaic scripture, Genesis 24:65, Numbers 5:18 and Isaiah 47:2 are references in the Old Testament refer to a headcovering for women. Although there is no positive command for women to cover their heads in the Old Testament, there are non-canonical rabbinical writings on tzniut, meaning "modesty".^[50]

Beholden

At 21 I was beholden to no one. At 22 I was beholden to an ideal. At 23 I was beholden to a man, at 25 I was beholden to money, at 27 I was beholden to my parents, at 29 I was beholden to my future, at 31 I was beholden to my legend, and at 33 I am beholden to a community of people who held me when all I had been beholden to failed me.

ICW 2014 (Incomplete, unedited, scheduled)

Therefore are no words to begin discussing an adventure of this magnitude. My nervous excited energy has common vocabulary words evading me, which is quite embarrassing.

When discussing with my confidant how to start writing this she said I should begin like an episode of Star Trek.
"Captain's log, star date...."
However I am not the captain on this journey or even the first mate. I have dubbed myself the title of "stowaway" but was offered something more prestigious.

The journey began on December 4th in Annapolis MD, where I rendezvoused with Patrick Edwards to drive a 52' Sabre "Delfina" to her winter home in Del Ray Beach. She carries 800 gallons of diesel, a 300 gallon water tank, 2 CAT engines, 2 heads, 2 staterooms,  a fully loaded kitchen, direct tv, 1 life raft, 1 RIB, 1 kayak, 2 folding bikes, and more navigation equipment than you can use.

Averaging about 16-18 kts, the Delfina is taking the Intracoastal waterway from her home port in Solomon's MD 1000 miles south to a warmer climate for her family to spend Christmas aboard her.

Patrick, the Delfina's owner Peter D'Arista, and myself disembarked December __ from below freezing weather, with a Nor'easter heading north in ou direction.

We left one day later than expected on a Saturday morning around 9am.

Maneuvering out of the creek, into the patuxent river then onto the foggy Chesapeake. Our first day of the voyage we ran 120 nautical miles, first into Norfolk then onto the Virginia bridges and locks.

The Chesapeake bay was dotted with fishermen in tiny boats, freezing while we stayed in the luxury and heat of the yacht, Delfina.
Our visibility was low, and the wind was high as we barreled into Norfolk around 1p and slowed to a no-wake speed past
first loading the sh
 The owner needing to take her south from

From email:

Therefore are no words to begin discussing an adventure of this magnitude. My nervous excited energy has common vocabulary words evading me, which is quite embarrassing.

When discussing with my confidant how to start writing this she said I should begin like an episode of Star Trek.
"Captain's log, star date...."
However I am not the captain on this journey or even the first mate. I have dubbed myself the title of "stowaway" but was offered something more prestigious.

The journey began on December 4th in Annapolis MD, where I rendezvoused with Patrick Edwards to drive a 52' Sabre "Delfina" to her winter home in Del Ray Beach. She carries 800 gallons of diesel, a 300 gallon water tank, 2 CAT engines, 2 heads, 2 staterooms,  a fully loaded kitchen, direct tv, 1 life raft, 1 RIB, 1 kayak, 2 folding bikes, and more navigation equipment than you can use.

Averaging about 16-18 kts, the Delfina is taking the Intracoastal waterway from her home port in Solomon's MD 1000 miles south to a warmer climate for her family to spend Christmas aboard her.

Patrick, the Delfina's owner Peter D'Arista, and myself disembarked December __ from below freezing weather, with a Nor'easter heading north in ou direction.

We left one day later than expected on a Saturday morning around 9am.

Maneuvering out of the creek, into the patuxent river then onto the foggy Chesapeake. Our first day of the voyage we ran 120 nautical miles, first into Norfolk then onto the Virginia bridges and locks.

The Chesapeake bay was dotted with fishermen in tiny boats, freezing while we stayed in the luxury and heat of the yacht, Delfina.
Our visibility was low, and the wind was high as we barreled into Norfolk around 1p and slowed to a no-wake speed past
first loading the sh
 The owner needing to take her south from  

Juliana Lykins // NINJAllc
Advertising // 732-646-5201
On Dec 5, 2014 12:48 PM, "Juliana Lykins" <julianalykins@gmail.com> wrote:
>
> Coffee, then took a tour of 2 boat yards, got a 2 hour ride south, now heading over to the boat.
>
> Juliana Lykins // NINJAllc
> Advertising // 732-646-5201v

Coffee, then took a tour of 2 boat yards, got a 2 hour ride south, now heading over to the boat.

Juliana Lykins // NINJAllc
Advertising // 732-646-5201
How

Paintable sign quotes

   “Give me six hours to chop down a tree and I will spend the first four sharpening the axe.”

― Abraham Lincoln 

“There are no great limits to growth because there are no limits of human intelligence, imagination, and wonder.”

― Ronald Reagan

   “Honesty is more than not lying. It is truth telling, truth speaking, truth living, and truth loving.”

― James E. Faust

  “Don't make a habit out of choosing what feels good over what's actually good for you.”

― Eric Thomas 

   “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”

― Antoine de Saint-Exupery 

   “I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”

― Michael Jordan 

“Never underestimate the power of dreams and the influence of the human spirit. We are all the same in this notion: The potential for greatness lives within each of us.” ― Wilma Rudolph

   “Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.”

― William Jennings Bryan 

   “Habits are safer than rules; you don't have to watch them. And you don't have to keep them either. They keep you.”

― Frank Crane 

   “Violence as a way of achieving racial justice is both impractical and immoral. I am not unmindful of the fact that violence often brings about momentary results. Nations have frequently won their independence in battle. But in spite of temporary victories, violence never brings permanent peace.”

― Martin Luther King, Jr. 

   “Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let every new year find you a better man.”

― Benjamin Franklin 

   “If you could kick the person in the pants responsible for most of your trouble, you wouldn't sit for a month.”

― Theodore Roosevelt 

   “Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible.”

― Tony Robbins 

 “We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.”

― Charles R. Swindoll 

   “Regret is not a proactive feeling. It is situated in disappointment, sorrow, even remorse. It merely wishes things were different without an act to cause a difference. However, repentance is different. Repentance is an admission of, hatred of, and turning away from sin before God.”

― Monica Johnson 

   “In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.”

― Mignon McLaughlin 

   “You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.”

― Buddha 

   “May the road rise to meet you. May the wind be always at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face. And rains fall soft upon your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.”

― Author Unknown 

“A teacher is never a giver of truth; he is a guide, a pointer to the truth that each student must find for himself.” ― Bruce Lee

“How is it they live in such harmony the billions of stars - when most men can barely go a minute without declaring war in their minds about someone they know.” ― Thomas Aquinas

  “Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.”

― Joseph Campbell 



 “By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.”

― Confucius